I spent half of last night in my friends garden clutching a cup of coffee watching the moon. How fantastic was the eclipse? I love the night sky. It makes you feel so insignificant.
I'm turning a corner today. Screw men and all their shit. In particular screw Tom. I'm going bonkers here. I'm still getting messages from Sean wanting to see me again, in the meantime I have had that date with Mr 'I wanna hold your hand' and he keeps texting me, then I had another date with a nice guy last week, who said he would call but hasn't so far - but my dilemma with him is that he is rather short and I like tall - but that's so shallow! Let's see if he calls before I start throwing out the one pair of high heels I own!
Tom can feck off now. What a good friend I am, how easy I am to talk to, how lovely it is to make me feel all this stuff for nothing, right Tom? Well I'm knocking you on the head. I can't move on with my life with you around distracting me. You will never hear from me again, and you will hopefully wonder what became of me - though I doubt that will last when you meet Little Miss Perfect and skip off into the sunset. It breaks my heart, but I have to practice a little self protection here, it hurts like hell and I want it to stop.
To top it all off though, there is my actual 'stalker' to deal with. I've had my head in the sand for a while with this guy. The feelings he has for me are totally out of proportion to what he actually knows about me and he's scaring me. Yesterday I came home and there was a gift through my door from him. I don't like him, I want him to go away!
