I've been in hiding. My life is so messed up at the moment! The love life is the main problem, lack of it or whatever.
The problem of the two men solved itself when I gave Sean the heave ho - totally unreliable and full of pathetic excuses. Tom is still on the scene, but the more time I spend with him the more I fall for him, but he sees me as a friend, not that the matter has come up in the last few weeks. Do you think this will ever change or is it really a case of 'he's just not that into you'!?
In an endeavour to get Tom out of my head I went on a date with another man - what a tangled web. This one was called Justin. Boring and yam yam, and those were his good points. Yet I felt guilty when he wanted to go out again for some reason - so went out with him last night. He was trying to hold me hand over the table and then he jumped me in the car park. I just didn't want him near me, so I won't be doing that again. All I could think was 'Tom, Tom, Tom, Tom, Tom'.
So I guess diversionary tactics are not going to work with Tom - and will I ever be able to give someone else a chance whilst my head is full of him? I think I will knock this dating other men on the head for a while.
I am really mad about him though! I feel like a schoolgirl.
